Monday, September 26, 2005

This morning at 700 am Arizona Time, my mommy went into surgery. Why, you ask? She is having knee replacement surgery on one knee now and the other in a few months once this first one heals properly.

So I got home from work about 1245am, checked the mail with Jack like I try to do every work night and was supposed to go to bed.

Nope I get on the damn computer and don’t get to sleep until like 330am. I originally planned on going to bed by 1 or 130am. So I get woken up at 400 by my stupid dog, this was kinda alarming because she was sorda growling and barking. I thought some one was in my house or something. I sit up and cant see her but I hear her then she comes from the foot of the bed and I find her doing this to Jack. Now this stupid dog is trying to get Jack to play in our room at 4 o’clock in the freaking morning! Jerk dog.

After a while I get back to sleep.

Then at 500 I suddenly just wake up. Like my internal alarm clock went off or something. I looked at the time then went back to bed.

I finally woke up again 10 minutes before my alarm was set to and start getting ready. I go to leave and as soon as I get on the streets I remember why I don’t drive in the mornings any more….TRAFFIC. I had to deal with that on the way to the hospital. I get there and tell my sister to leave and get some breakfast. She does. Then my moms friend/realtor lady Floriene shows up, now I haven’t seen this lady in about 3 years I think. She sits and chats with me for a little while then my sister comes back. Eventually the doctor comes out and tells up what happened and where my mom should be next. I told my sister to go home and rest until my mom is in a room and I’ll come back and check on her. I leave too go the gym then come back later on.

I see my mom and sees all drugged up still, I mean she had a morphine drip clicker thingy thing!

Depression

de·pres·sion
n.

1. 1. The act of depressing.
   2. The condition of being depressed.
2. An area that is sunk below its surroundings; a hollow.
3. The condition of feeling sad or despondent.
4. Psychology. A psychiatric disorder characterized by an inability to concentrate, insomnia, loss of appetite, anhedonia, feelings of extreme sadness, guilt, helplessness and hopelessness, and thoughts of death. Also called clinical depression.
5. 1. A reduction in activity or force.
   2. A reduction in physiological vigor or activity: a depression in respiration.
   3. A lowering in amount, degree, or position.

I think this is why I have been tired lately. I have been sleeping way too much and still feeling tired. I have been eating a lot though that is kinda weird. I don't want to do much and I want to be around Amatsu for confort. It's not like I never want to be around him but I've always tried to not make him feel 'smothered'. I don't want to over do it and make him want me to go away so I give him space....

I am a bit depressed today. First off the death of Todd....this is not something I am looking forward to tomorow. His funeral is tomorrow at 1pm.

Earlier today I got a phone call as I'm trying to walk in to work about my dad's motorcycle. My mom says a guy from her, Kindom Hall or what ever it's called (That is her version of church), is trying to move the bike. He can't get it into neutral. Now grant this is a 1980 Yamaha Midnight special motorcycle all bikes for the most part are the same. I told her to have him to try and put it in neutral again but rck the bike when he tries. Then I told him to puch the clutch in the just roll it. He couldn't get it moving. I told her unless the brakes and calipers are stuck or something like that it shoudl move. I hoped he knew what he was doing.

I get in to work and email her. She says he got the bike moving, put it on a u haul and drove it away. The brakes were ceased some how together. She cried when it drove away.

I said thanks for letting me know that you were selling it....
I about cried here at my desk myself.
She told the guy that she wants to see it when it gets all fixed up and drives again. Apparently he lives about 2 miles from her.

Then last night I was watching Hellsing with Amatsu and an episode of Sir Integra and her father. It explains about how she became in charge and how Alucard came about. Well of course her father had to die. That hit me for some reason, it made me feel bad.
That made me think of my father and how much I wish he was here again.
How much I miss him and would love to see him, hear him, just be stupid again with him.

I would give anything to see him again....even for 5 minutes. Just enough time to have a drink, a beer with him.

Well what can you do. I'll never know what happened, why it happened or anything.

To sum it all up, I fucking miss my dad, I'm sad because of Todd and Hellsing trggered some but it's a good short series.

Yu

Todd DeGain

This was a man that I knew, we knew up until September 14, 2005.

Some stupid ass towel head of a lady on a dual citizenship that was drunk ended his life.

She drug him 300 feet after she hit him.
Then to top it all off she tried to drive away!!! What the fuck is wrong with this fucking lady?!?!!

For those who are curious about Todd he was a smart man. He had 2 dogs, Sasha and Bailey. He was a goofy bastard, kinda weird in his own way but it was Todd, that's just what he did. He loved electronics anything to do with wires and power and speakers and amps, I mean all that stuff. He actually repaired Amatsu's amp a while back. He would make things out of nothing just cause he could, he may of not really needed it but he made it anyways.
I loved his dog Sasha, she is so cute. Hyper at times but cute.

Our friend Burns was living with Todd for a while not that long ago. Burns bought a new home so he moved out a few months ago.
Here is a link to his obituary it your interested.

http://www.legacy.com/azcentral/LegacySubPage2.asp?Page=LifeStory&PersonId=15103607

He will always be loved and missed.

Police arrest two in deadly hit-and-run wreck

04:41 PM MST on Wednesday, September 14, 2005

azfamily.com and 3TV Staff

Mesa police are investigating a deadly hit-and-run accident this morning.

3TV

Police said a witness saw a gray Jeep Cherokee and a red Mustang speeding away from the scene.

It happened around 2:30 this morning near Alma School and Baseline roads.

Police are booking Muneerah Ali Al-Tarrah, 23, and Reem Ahmad Bisharra, 19, in connection with the wreck. Both women face charges of felony hit and run and driving under the influence.

According to police, a witness heard the accident and saw two vehicles, a gray Jeep Cherokee and a red Mustang, speeding away from the scene.

That witness saw the body of a 35-year-old Mesa man, who has been identified as Todd DeGain, in the street and ran to a nearby service station where he told the clerk to call 911.

DeGain was driving a motorized scooter when he was hit and killed. Police believe he was dragged 300 feet down Alma School Road.

The Cherokee and Mustang the witness reported seeing speeding from the scene were pulled over about a mile away.

According to Sgt. Chuck Trapani of the Mesa Police Department, it's possible that Ali Al-Tarrah, the driver of the Cherokee, had been drinking.

"Traffic detectives during the initial interview did see some clues … so there's a possibility that alcohol is a factor," Trapani said.

After police questioned Al-Tarrah and Bisharra, who was behind the wheel of the Mustang, investigators placed both women under arrest.

The intersection was closed for more than six hours as police conducted their investigation.

My Portfolio

I have a small portfolio for now too.

http://www.emeraldimaging.net/Tiffany/Tiffany.html

Squirrel nuts!

Here's the story my sister wrote about my new niece

I'm not sure if I shoudl post this or not, so I'm going to read all of this then decide whether or not I should......sorry

Modeling

I took some modeling pistures on Friday evening. I had a lot of fun doing it. I had some one to do make up for me, which was great cause I'm not thatgreat with make up. I wish I knew how to do crazy eye make up, that is all I want to know how to do if anything.

Nate was the photographer and Leo, which works with me, did the make up. I think he did awesome with the make up. I enjoyed him being there, he set the mood cause he's fun and goofy. He helped set the shots too. I think he liked adjusting my hair.

Well I'm supposed to get a cd of all the pictures so I'm sure Amatsu will have loads of fun in Photoshop to clean up the pics.

There are 7 pictures total of me Nate put on one of his portfolios.

The url are:

http://photobucket.com/albums/y291/EtaNn/
http://emeraldimaging.net/

The other sites are

http://www.artistnow.com/EtaNn

http://www.pbase.com/etann/

I have been informed that he is having some one work on a site that he can show one big profolio and have an email for that too.

I hope you like the pictures. I met a chick by the name of Misty, she has modeled for him before and she cool. She kinda has the same ideas that I do for modeling. That was nice cause we were able to compliment each other.

Ok my tummy hurts so bye.
=^_^=

My thoughts on Mike Jones

So I was thinking about what Amatsu said about Mike Jones last night when I was driving home. I came up with this…I think cause I have a horrible memory.

Kinda like how I freaking forgot to get Rachel her freaking birthday present STILL! I’m horrible I tell ya. I had planned one couple of small things but never got them. So I think I will.

Here goes, if Mike Jones had an ideas of his own for a cd it would be this.

Mikes Jones has a self titled cd called Mike Jones.

Track 1- Mike Jones

Track 2- Mike Jones

Track 3- What?? Mike Jones

Track 4- Mike Jones

Track 5- Mike Jones

Track 6- Who?? Mike Jones

Track 7- Mike Jones

Track 8- WHAT?! Mike Jones

Track 9- Mike Jones

Track 10 – What?? Mike Jones……WHAT?!

Yeah what a great CD. I bet it would hit Platinum. Pfffhahahahaa! Yeah right what a fucking loser!! Some times two quarters irritates me too. He has great beats but some songs just should of never been made. Like a prime example would be the NIN remix remake song….NOOOO stupid two quarters! God damn it. NOO!

Ok so about the weather how is it where you are now? It’s like 100 degrees here in Arizona another hot day. Yup like always.

Hope where every you are is better. At least I’m inside typing in 78 degree climate at work. Hell ya I’m typing this at work and getting paid to type out some thoughts. Fun stuff.

Almost lunch too. I have a PB and J, banana, peach, and a year old frozen chimichanga (I swear).

SO I got an email from my sister about the story of Mayala’s birth. I should post it for you to read. The first line is fucking great! Hahaha. You’ll see what I mean….I almost cringed cause I’ve never seen one so I had to use my imagination…..let me tell ya. That thing scares me sometimes.

My dreams are great usually but when I have nightmares they are sooo god damn real that when I wake up I have to sit and think and collect myself to make sure it was a dream. And that I’m actually awake now. Man I wonder if I still talk in my sleep.

There was one time that I actually rolled over and said a sentence to Amatsu. This was like 3 years ago but he will never forget that. I opened my eyes and blurted something to him, closed my eyes then went back to sleep. He said I freaked him out. He tried to wake me up to ask me what I had said and I just said, huh, what then went back to sleep.

Fucking crazy huh??

Malaya Jamison

Today I am an auntie…..again.

Today my sister had her second daughter.

Today a beautiful baby was born at 3:06pm.

This all started yesterday. My mom and sister called me to let me know that my sister lost her mucus plug. Yeah that sounds gross but that’s how it works.

Then very early this morning about 5:30am, I received a call from my mom saying that my sister has started having contractions. I’m thinking Yaaaa, my sister is now in labor! Then I’m thinking what the hell are contractions and what do they do???

I’ve seen enough movies to assume what the mother is feeling but I have really have no idea. Kinda like how a male will NEVER understand the process and feeling of giving birth.

So today before work I head on over to see my sister in labor on Labor day, how odd. Well I see her in much pain and ask my mom what contractions are and she explains them to me. I’m thinking, I’m watching, I’m thinking, I’m watching…..I don’t know if I can handle having a damn child!!!

Hell yeah I can handle a 10 gauge needle or bar in my nipples and skin nut a fucking kid! That’s another story.

So yeah back to the pain stuff. WOW how can a human handle that crap? I know we’ve been popping out kids for a long time but man don’t you think they would find a little less painless way to give birth. Like my sister, both times she’ opted to give birth at home in the bathtub. I agree with this method and would like to use it but up until that baby slides out, your in tons and tons of pain! Then come to find out you have post contractions and you have more plus more intense ones the more children you have. Just think and I wanted to have twins!! What was I thinking?? I do want at least a boy then maybe, just maybe a girl. If I have to have a girl I want her to be younger so the boy can kinda watch her.

I wont be able to see the new Malaya until tomorrow or possibly even until this weekend. I hear she has a full head of hair. My mom is supposed to send me pics and measurements. All that good stuff.

Ok sooooo. My friend Pam is now gone, back to Denver she went. She’s now enjoying all her old friends and the nice weather. Her parents got a job back in Denver where they are all from. I’m happy for her though, if she has the opportunity to go back to a place she didn’t want to leave from then right on. I always said that I would want to move back to California if I had the chance, but now I’m not so sure. It’s not like how Cali used to be. I don’t visit as often as I wanted to but when I do go back it’s all crap.

Most of my dads family is out there and I love that side of my family greatly. They are the goofiest set of people you’ll meet.

I want to move to Okinawa, Japan. Or even Germany I almost joined the Air Force to work on airplanes just before I turned 18. I had Military Recruiters calling my house when I turned 17. My mom used to get mad about it but I never really talked to them. I scored high on the placement tests so that’s probably why.

I’m glad now that I didn’t join. Many reasons why. One is my father. Another is Amatsu. My family and now the stupid stupid ‘war’ is going on in stupid stupid Iraq.

Well now that I’m full from lunch food and tired I still want to have a boy but I’m not looking forward to the experience so much than I was before hand.

Bang!

I hope this damn image comes up cause it's great.